Today I was sitting at my friends house and she received a text message on her phone that read, "As of 8/19/08 MARSHALL HILL passed away. Take 1 minute to forward this message on and remember all the good time you had with him. With loving memory MARSHALL." A look of complete shock crossed my face as I realize someone I knew I died. He died from cancer of the brain. I sat there for a moment thinking of when I knew him all the way back in elementary school. That is a really long time if you think about it. Then I realized that how little I known about him. I thought of all the people that would miss him and all of the people that would be hurting. I was reading my other friend's blog (Kyle) and he said that he died peacefully which makes it a little easier to deal with. He died yesterday of brain cancer. This makes me realize that even with your life seems to be going great bad things happen all over the world.
Yesterday was my 9 month anniversary with my boyfriend, Matt. We spent time together like usual. I never suspected this. The strangest bit is that the day that we got together was the day that Brandon Kohl had passed. It makes me think also that no matter how long you think you will live you never know what the next day will hold. You should get to know the people you don't, cherish the ones that you have, and don't dwell on the past. Live for the day with no regrets.
Last week I also found out the my distant cousin died. She was the one year younger than my mom. Also I found out today that my mom's man's sister died of cancer. It's insane that deaths always happen in threes. I feel for everyone that was close to all three of these people and I want them to know that life will get better even though it feels like it never will.
On another note, my close friend Becky is moving to Alabama in three weeks. I won't be able to see her again until months from now. My other friend has completely seemed to forget about me and I feel alone right now. I know that I have Matt but there are somethings you can't talk about with your boyfriend. Life for me is about to change and I don't know what to do. I want to scream at the top of my lungs for the whole world to hear but I know that no one would. Alone once again. Hurray for me.
