GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Perfect just perfect. Everything was going great and then this shit has to happen. My grandfather is in the hospital again and he doesn't look good. At least not to me. I scares me. He's like a dad to me. The dad I never had. I was sitting there in the chair next to his bed when he asked for me to hold his hand. I felt as if I let go that would be the end. I know that is a bad thing to think, especially now, but that's how I felt. Damn it.