Life!!!!!

Okay so I am so totally tired of all the BS that has been happening lately I just want to break down a cry my eyes out until I've cried so much no more tears will come. The moment that my life starts looking up everything else has to turn to shit. I have the greatest best friend in the world and the best boyfriend anyone could ask for. I plan on moving to North Carolina to live with him in less than 3 weeks. I was so happy just having him back in my life but actually living with him it's like a miracle or something. Anyway, I was actually totally and complete happy for the only time in my life except when I was a probably a baby. Childhood fucking sucked because I was scared of who might be right around the corner to lay their fucking hands on me next. To top it all off his family is awesome. I've only met then twice and I feel as though they are my family too. So life is going great or at least it was. Well my mom found out about the whole moving down there thing. Fine and dandy I wanted her to know. She gets pissed so now things between my mom and me are kinda no not kinda really stressful. As if that wasn't bad enough she started smoking again claiming I was the reason. WTF? I am not gonna take the blame for her killing herself. Well, that was some time ago so anyway Heather starts bitching about having to find another babysitter. Hello, the state pays me, they will pay someone else. So anyway yesterday I got to see my friend bobbie whom I haven't seen in 2 month so we decide to hang out. Her father flips out on her saying that he had to come home from work because her sister said she went missing. I felt bad because I thought she had gotten in trouble for climbing on the cliff. This made me feel even worse. Well before that Andrew's parents bought me minutes for my phone, all fine and dandy I suppose but I felt so special because my parents would never do anything like that. The way that they treat me makes me feel more wanted by them than I ever have by my own parents. It seems like lately too that my mom has begun to act like my step father the jerk that he is and Mike is all nice to me. As though my mom thinks that that will make me stay. I'm not staying. I could be in the best situation here and still leave because I want to be with Andrew. Yeah, it sucks because I am leaving my friends, it really sucks but if they are truely my friends I know they will understand and be happy that I am happy well will be happy. Oh and the icing on the cake. My sleeping pattern has been sucking lately, my whole body aches from head to toe and my stomache hurts. Anyway this is a thank you to every that is helping me through this rough spot right now. Thanks Brittany. Thanks Kelsey, even though I haven't talked to you in a while being your friend still helps. Thanks Andrew. Thanks to Hope and Matthew. Thanks Mrs. Karen and Mr. Joe. Thanks Cara. Thanks Jared. Thanks Becky. And anyone else I forgot thanks for being there and always being by my side. So here's my birthday wish: I want my mom to be happy that I am happy for once in my life.